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Well hello, 2017

Another year quickly passes by and from what I can tell, this will continue to happen faster and faster! As you might guess, 2016 was quite busy and full. Life as parents is still a role we feel new with. Having a second kid within such a small time from just starting has thrown us into full kid mode nearly 100% of the time. This is a challenge we are up for, and confidently move forward with little by little each day. It is the remembering we are also a couple that often takes a back seat and requires the most energy after the kids have been cared for. Again… Little by little.

We have enjoyed every moment of getting to know Cora. She is so refreshing and turns any tired I have into energy. Recently, her schedule changed so I don’t see her in the mornings and I am feeling the decrease in my own energy when I have to go to work without having seen her. I have to say, it is an adjustment. I miss her terribly. She is such a happy baby. She smiles every time I go to get her out of her bed, even if I wake her! So I eagerly look forward to her smile (along with her brother’s) when I get home each afternoon. Here are a few recent pictures. img_3831 img_3872

The holiday season was great. We had a nice Christmas. Of course we bounce from one house the next which is so much more exhausting tugging these kids and all their creature comforts along, but it was all worth it. Sharing these holiday memories with family is absolutely priceless. Of course, this is about how we feel while wrangling the kids every which way!

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But our holiday photo in pajamas turned out just fine in the end after a little bit of settling down.

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Hugo of course has become fun to shop for as his interests grow by the minute. He loves anything with a lid, and likes to put things inside bags. Currently, his favorite mischievous activity is sneaking into the drawer with the foil and ziplock bags and pulling out a gallon size freezer bag and putting as many of his little objects inside of it as he can. His mouth is filling with teeth, his mobility on his feet is ever more sturdy, and he is getting closer and closer to talking each day. His clever and exploratory mind is usually pushing him to constantly be moving and touching everything, but every so often, his sweet sensitive side comes out where he is sharing with his sister, cuddling with his mom, or giving his handsome dad a big hug. It is an incredible thing watching him grow.

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And so we forage into another year, looking for more time in the week and hours in the day. But my goal this year is to try to focus on the time that I do have with these little kiddies instead of complaining about never having enough time for anything. I am lucky to be a mom, and lucky to share such an experience with a wonderful husband and friend. Yes we are ambitious and always trying to fix the house, buy the next helpful thing, and do what we want for the kids, but if we always focus on what we haven’t done, we will forget about what is happening now. So, reprioritizing and feeling more gratitude are my goals for the year.

That time I spent 12 weeks at home with Hugo

My time home with Hugo has been magical. Learning how to be a mom, to be patient, to go without sleep, to sacrifice showers, to be a home-body, and to really love this little guy has been an experience that is difficult to describe. I guess the best way to put it is like this: Before Hugo, there were always events we were looking forward to, things like our wedding, other weddings, our honeymoon, vacations, births of other children, and so on. There was always something coming up and then when they were over, there was a little bit of a let down. Like, now what? I don’t want you to think that our lives were built around anticipating big events and there was nothing else in our lives. There is plenty else in between, but this is just my way of explaining this. What I have realized over the past 12 weeks is that we now have a lifetime of upcoming moments. There is always something to look forward to. Right now, it’s the little things such as, when he can sit up on his own, when he rolls over, when he begins to crawl, when he starts to eat solid foods. This is what we are anticipating and looking forward to and will always be out there. He is going to have so many firsts that we get to guide him through. Other moments will be be bigger. Potty training, kindergarten, high school, driving, etc. Right now, we are reveling in these little moments. Smiles, grunts, scowls, wiggles and grabs are so exciting that we really can’t imagine anything else being more….anything…fun, captivating, fulfilling, you name it. I couldn’t be happier.

Over the last 12 weeks, he has grown and changed so much. He started out in the 5th percentile for his size at birth. He proceeded to lose a whole pound because he wasn’t getting what he needed from breastfeeding. So for the first several weeks, he was sure a little peanut! At our appointment at the end of July, we were happy to learn that he has grown his way into the 50th percentile for weight and 75th for head size and length. It seemed like he was only wearing newborn sized clothes and he is now well into 0-3 and 3 month sized clothes respectively. I know from here he is just going to grow grow grow.

Hugo and I had some nice memories at home. Ok, he wont remember but I sure will. Staying home might have seemed a little boring to an outsider. I didn’t leave the house very often but this was just want I wanted. I kept Hugo on his schedule and while he slept I kept the house clean and took care of other stuff, you know, like shopping on Amazon! When I think back on this time, there are two things that I will think of that are a little nutty. Game of Thrones and Downton Abbey. These are two shows that I got into and obsessed over. I mean, Hugo is cute and all, but I am only so entertained by his laying on his back and batting at his little activity gym. The shows are what got us through some down time 🙂

Now that I am back at work, I am in the middle of some strange adjustments. It isn’t as though our current schedule is something we should get used to. Kris is staying home with Hugo until our Au Pair arrives in the coming months so I suppose I feel like I am in a holding pattern. I am looking forward to establishing a schedule and figuring out a way to balance my work life with my home life. Home life is being a mom and managing a home which I have learned that this part truly a full time job if you let it be. I am not sure how life will be like when we have someone here, living with us to take care of Hugo while we are at work. Will we still go for dates? or will we simply be happy here at home with Hugo because we will miss him so much? Since Hugo arrived, one of us have stayed home. Losing this and adjusting to someone else caring for him will be pretty tough and will create a distraction at work. We will see how it goes.

Anyway, I am wandering and am more tired than ever! Off I go. Maybe my future posts of thoughtfulness about being a mom will be a little bit more put together.

Weddings, houses, jobs

Now that we have crossed over the half way mark on 2014, I think some reflection and some updates are in order. We began the year with Kris’ surgery, which went well and he has made a full recovery.  Not many people spend Christmas and new years at UCLA hospital (or any hospital for that matter) on purpose, but it all worked out for the best. As we began to emerge once again, my dear aunt died suddenly. This happened 2 weeks before a work trip to India. Needless to say, February and March are a blur. Somehow, during this time, we decided to put an offer in on a new house, which ended up closing by the end of May. April was kicked off with the first of many wedding related events. Bachelorette weekend in Napa, bridal showers, weddings and lots of joy were scattered through May and June. July kicked off with my job separating from the University and I now work for a non-profit study abroad organization. The remainder of the moth has been spent settling in to the new house and taking some time to relax.

Nearly all of those sentences above are full of lots of stories. Some good, some sad, some frustrating. I became so drained even though the majority of these things are happy and exciting, nonetheless extraordinarily hard work in most cases. I am sitting here in our new place. Peaceful, quiet, stacks of cardboard still lurk, becoming more and more ours and looking like us. I can’t help but feel the comfort of a little permanence. I like the idea of being here for a while and looking forward to all of the ups and [hopefully not too many] downs of the rest of the year. So far, everything has been worth it, despite how much I have whined in the last 6 months.