My time home with Hugo has been magical. Learning how to be a mom, to be patient, to go without sleep, to sacrifice showers, to be a home-body, and to really love this little guy has been an experience that is difficult to describe. I guess the best way to put it is like this: Before Hugo, there were always events we were looking forward to, things like our wedding, other weddings, our honeymoon, vacations, births of other children, and so on. There was always something coming up and then when they were over, there was a little bit of a let down. Like, now what? I don’t want you to think that our lives were built around anticipating big events and there was nothing else in our lives. There is plenty else in between, but this is just my way of explaining this. What I have realized over the past 12 weeks is that we now have a lifetime of upcoming moments. There is always something to look forward to. Right now, it’s the little things such as, when he can sit up on his own, when he rolls over, when he begins to crawl, when he starts to eat solid foods. This is what we are anticipating and looking forward to and will always be out there. He is going to have so many firsts that we get to guide him through. Other moments will be be bigger. Potty training, kindergarten, high school, driving, etc. Right now, we are reveling in these little moments. Smiles, grunts, scowls, wiggles and grabs are so exciting that we really can’t imagine anything else being more….anything…fun, captivating, fulfilling, you name it. I couldn’t be happier.
Over the last 12 weeks, he has grown and changed so much. He started out in the 5th percentile for his size at birth. He proceeded to lose a whole pound because he wasn’t getting what he needed from breastfeeding. So for the first several weeks, he was sure a little peanut! At our appointment at the end of July, we were happy to learn that he has grown his way into the 50th percentile for weight and 75th for head size and length. It seemed like he was only wearing newborn sized clothes and he is now well into 0-3 and 3 month sized clothes respectively. I know from here he is just going to grow grow grow.
Hugo and I had some nice memories at home. Ok, he wont remember but I sure will. Staying home might have seemed a little boring to an outsider. I didn’t leave the house very often but this was just want I wanted. I kept Hugo on his schedule and while he slept I kept the house clean and took care of other stuff, you know, like shopping on Amazon! When I think back on this time, there are two things that I will think of that are a little nutty. Game of Thrones and Downton Abbey. These are two shows that I got into and obsessed over. I mean, Hugo is cute and all, but I am only so entertained by his laying on his back and batting at his little activity gym. The shows are what got us through some down time 🙂
Now that I am back at work, I am in the middle of some strange adjustments. It isn’t as though our current schedule is something we should get used to. Kris is staying home with Hugo until our Au Pair arrives in the coming months so I suppose I feel like I am in a holding pattern. I am looking forward to establishing a schedule and figuring out a way to balance my work life with my home life. Home life is being a mom and managing a home which I have learned that this part truly a full time job if you let it be. I am not sure how life will be like when we have someone here, living with us to take care of Hugo while we are at work. Will we still go for dates? or will we simply be happy here at home with Hugo because we will miss him so much? Since Hugo arrived, one of us have stayed home. Losing this and adjusting to someone else caring for him will be pretty tough and will create a distraction at work. We will see how it goes.
Anyway, I am wandering and am more tired than ever! Off I go. Maybe my future posts of thoughtfulness about being a mom will be a little bit more put together.